Really? This is annoying.

So again. Change of plans. This time, it's going to stick. How many times I've changed my mind is getting annoying.

I'm not staying in St. George. I'm not going back to Orem. Where am I going? Cedar City. I'm meant to be there. I think of anywhere else and I start stressing out. Mostly about school. I'm still a student at Southern Utah University. I want to be. I will probably live at the Inn across the street from my old house. When I think about Cedar, I get excited and relax.

Yes I have changed my mind an infinite number of times but I think I'm going to stick... scratch that, I'm going to stick with it. No thinking about it.

I still haven't sold my contract so hopefully that happens!

Another update. This time in life I'm getting a little carried away with what I eat. I don't think about what it will do to my body if I eat it. I weighed myself today and lost a whopping eight pounds since last time I checked. Crazy stuff right there. At least I think it's good. I'm going to try and lose thirty pounds. The frustrating thing about all of this weight loss stuff is that I usually only lose inches and not pounds. I'm going to give Weight Watchers a try. What do you think? Should I? I know some of you have done it. Let me know how you like it. If you have any tips, let me know.

Well two posts for you guys to read today. Happy Independence Day to you!

I promise, next place I live, I'll stay there for some time. Thanks for sticking through my life.

It's Independence Day...

So for the Fourth of July weekend, I came to St. George to spend time with Lydia and her family.

On Friday, Sophia had her birthday party. She's three years old. What? What happened to the other two years? She's so cute. She got a lot of toys and had a Bug themed birthday. It turned out really well and Candace made a cute Caterpillar cake (bunt cakes cute in half and stood them up). It was very cute. I wish my camera wouldn't have died. Disappointment.

On Saturday, we went up Cedar Mountain to Ronnie's (brother in law) Grandfathers property. It was so gorgeous up there. Once again, camera was dead. Before I go move on to more important things, I'm going to give you some useless information I learned that day from my intelligent because-she's older sister. I learned what a bluff was, a knoll, a marsh, and learned that the Aspen trees at Fish Lake is the biggest living organism in the world. I also learned about different wildflowers. Yes, the only reason she knows these things (as her kids would say) is because she's older and they know everything. Pft whatever. Anyway, we kept seeing meadows. Like you would see in The Sound of Music. I wanted to frolic in them. With all the yellow, purple, and white flowers. People who frolic are cool, right? Well sad to say, I didn't frolic at all. Once you got up close it was all lumpy. There were Mole tracks. Gross. Then Ronnie told us that we needed to entertain ourselves because we would be there for some time. So what did three adults do? We pretended that the ground was lava and the only way we would live is if we balanced on the dead Aspen trees that fell. After losing limbs from the lava burning them off, we decided that we had nine lives. We started off at five years old, and ended up graduating to fifteen. Yeah, we sure did entertain ourselves. It was actually really fun. We all deserve to be five years old sometimes. Try it out.

Sunday I went to Church with Lydia and her family. It was interesting. A lot different from the LDS Church, that's for sure. After Church we came back and ate some dinner and then went to see Transformers 3. In 3D. It was phenomenal. If you guys haven't gone to see it, please treat yourselves to it and GO. If you don't know who Geniel Perkins is ignore this. If you do, you can't tell me that one of the girls on it (forgot her name) looks JUST like her.

She didn't wear the glasses during the movie but afterwards, I put them on her and this is what she did. Isn't she so cute? I think she is. You think whatever but you don't have a soul if you think otherwise.

Today is Independence Day. I'm so grateful for the people in other lands, fighting for us, so we can be in our land and live in freedom. If it weren't for them, we wouldn't be where we're at today. Tonight, we're going to light fireworks and just hang out. At least I think that's the plan. Along with everything else, Sophia is learning how to go "pee-pee in the potty." Today I told her that every time she went to the bathroom IN the toilet, she would get a sticker. If she gets five stickers, she'll get a treat. If she has an accident, she gets a sticker taken away. Hopefully it works.

Well there is my weekend. Is anyone else doing (or already have done) anything fun?

One Last Time...

So before I had back down to St. Geezy, I told Jessica that we had to go on one last adventure before we left the big city. She agreed. We then made our way to Salt Lake. What's there to do there? Oh you know, go to the best place ever. The Salt Lake Temple. I don't know how long we were there but we were there for quite a bit.

Here you go. Enjoy a few pictures:

How fun huh? Just what I needed to end such a stressful life up here. Don't get me wrong, the experience up here was great. I really figured things out about myself up here and that's a good thing. I'm really excited to see if St. George if for me. I sure hope so. I'm sick of moving.

When we got back, we went to wal mart to get nail polish remover because Jessica accidentally got nail polish on the wall. Don't ask. So we got some and then saw pastel nail polish. Jessica's obsessed. Go here and you'll believe me. You know, follow her if you would please. She's a great blogger (she needs to get back in habit though. ahem.).

Yay for pastels! Don't think I pull the whole bright color off though. We'll see how long it lasts.

So my lovely friend Chelsea is like the best blog ever. You know those people who get famous for their blogs and it turns into a career? Yeah, well she's going to be one of those people. Then I'm going to be privileged because I know her personally. Well anyway, she blogged about the Do's and Don'ts of summer. I'm really jealous of people with long hair. I miss mine so much. I am very fond of my red hair now but I want the length back and I'm not going to get extensions. Not only are they costly (and what poor college student can afford that?) but I can't pull them off. I've never tried but I have an idea. I want to be able to braid my hair again. Her blog was showing way cute braids. I love the fishtail side pony. So much.

Like this. I want my long hair back. Now.

Well anyway, it is three o'clock in the a.m and I need to wake up early to get the show on the road.

Next stop. St George.

So long, Orem. It's been real. It's been fun. But sorry, it hasn't been real fun. Yeah, I'm funny sometimes.

Thanks for stopping by and reading! Have a great day.

Earth To Mary...

This is what I found out after I posted what I wrote last. I didn't want to delete the last post because... well I don't want to. It will make sense if you read both of them. They are long but eh. Like I said before, you don't have to read these. ha

What I find beautiful in the Church and its works is that after you humbly pray with full heart and full intention, something that you said or something that someone said to you awhile ago pops in your mind, or a scripture stands out most to you when you're reading your scriptures, or a simple yet most comforting feeling comes to you when you are crying to our Lord for courage and strength to get through the next day. Sorry, I know this is getting personal but I just prayed and literally cried and asked Him to simply be with me. I know He's always there. As I write this I think back to a time where a girl Amanda said that the Lord is always there. However, when we do something that let's say "bothers" Him, He'll just leave the room. I feel like He knows me the best. I feel most comfortable when I'm centered around Christ. When I'm not, I start thinking differently about myself- where my life will end up at- and I feel His presence start fading away. What can I do to bring Him back? I do exactly what I'm supposed to do. I pray to Him asking for His hand, I read my scriptures and pay attention; not let those worldly attractions get the best of me, and I center myself around Him. Right now I'm reading the scriptures. I read a scripture that was an instant answer. Not kidding. I prayed then started reading then came across this scripture: "But behold, he did deliver them because they did humble themselves before him; and because they cried mightily unto him he did deliver them out of bondage; and thus doth the Lord work with his power in all cases among the children of men, extending the arm of mercy towards them that put their trust in him." Mosiah 29:20. It's easier said than done (at least in my mind) but we need to do just that. Trust in him and pray humbly and He will be there to help us and bring us out of bondage. It may not be right away, and when he does take us out of bondage, it'll still be hard but like I said, He knows me better than I know myself. He will provide what I need according to what He knows is best. I will get married to that prince charming that everyone says will come along, I will listen to my heart and do what I think is right (with much prayer), I do deserve better than what I've been getting. Maybe this guy will end up realizing that he needs to work harder. And things happen for a reason-- even if things do ignite into flames.

Earth to Mary (yes, third person), things happen for a reason. "Pray for the strength to walk the high road, which at times may be lonely but which will lead to peace and happiness and joy supernal." -President Gordon B. Hinckley

p.s. if you haven't noticed, I packed my journal away. Maybe that was a bad idea. Thanks for listening to my bipolar-ness.

Sometimes...

I know that lately I have been on a rant about how life is good, don't take it for granted, just step back and look at the blessing you DO have.

Well right now, I'm going against everything I said. Quite frankly, life sucks right now.

Nothing has worked out in my favor this summer. I had such a good summer planned and everything has ignited into flames. I'm serious. Not a single thing has worked out.

Sometimes I just want to scream and cry-- fight everything that comes my way because I know it's not going to work out.

*warning: cliche girly talk here*

Then on top of that, someone I really like doesn't give me the attention that I strive for. People tell me all the time, you deserve so much more then him, you need to listen to your heart, when you're least expecting it you'll be swept of your feet by prince charming. I don't know about you, but that stuff does not help one bit.

I may have wasted my time on this certain someone but I don't regret one minute of it. I know it sounds fishy-- he doesn't give me the attention I strive for but I still want him? Yes. I do. I just need him to show me that he wants this more than he's showing. I know he wants this, he just shows it differently.

Like I said, nothing is working out.

Can I please run away to Fiji?

Wolverine Crossing Contracts (2) for sale

I'm desperate people!!

Jessica and I are moving down to St. George. Yes, it's official.

We need to sell these contracts or else we're going to be paying a lot of money to get out of it. I mean A LOT of money. So, please, if you know of anyone moving to Orem/Provo let me know and let them know that I have two contracts for sell that they could buy.

The apartments are super social and fun! They are cute and homey.

craigslist: http://provo.craigslist.org/roo/2445129008.html

ksl: http://www.ksl.com/index.php?nid=475&ad=16015333&cat=276

UVU: http://www.uvu.edu/campusconnection/classifieds/my-ads

Those are the places I've put adverts on. Please, if anyone is interested, let me know!

mwhite756@gmail.com

(435) 592-5067

Thanks! It'll be greatly appreciated.

Feeling Domestic?

So the last few days I have been craving something. I wasn't sure what this something was but finally figured it out. Banana Split. Not just any regular generic banana splits though. I remembered one time very vaguely my mother making banana split bites. Maybe it was a daydream of mine when I was younger that I wished often that it became reality.

Anyway, I found them online. This made me inflame in excitement (over this? yes.)!

This picture is just what I imagined them to be. Instead of the sprinkles I thought of peanuts.

Don't those look fabulous? Why I'm craving a Banana Split is beyond me.(Credit goes here.).

• Use firm bananas and cut into 1 inch sections. Leave the peel on for easy handling, and with a melon baller, dig a well in the middle of each banana section.
• Melt chocolate in the microwave and dip the bottom portion of the banana in chocolate and then dip it once again in either non-pareils or chopped peanuts. To quickly harden the chocolate, place dipped bananas in the freezer for five minutes.
• Fill each well with ice cream (I filled mine with vanilla chocolate chip) and top with whip cream and a maraschino cherry.

After I took a look at those beauties I decided I just have a sweet tooth. Chelsea Trunnell I'm secretly hoping you'll try these out since you seem to love to try new things in the kitchen.

I kept looking up deserts. As I was fumbling around I came across this. This website said that this is a great desert to make when you don't want to use your oven. It's summertime now so who wants to use their oven? Pft. Not this guy (me).

Now what are those? Those are Salt River Bars. I'm all about the sweet and salty so, yes, I indeed want to try these out.

1 box Club Crackers (actually, about 1 1/5 sleeves of Club crackers)
1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter
1 cup brown sugar
1 cup-ish peanut butter chips
1 1/2 cups semi-sweet chocolate chips
1 1/2 teaspoons vegetable or canola oil
coarse sea salt

Those are the ingredients. Go here for the directions (too long to put on the blog- way too long).

Okay, this is the last one. I swear. I'm sure your taste-buds will thank me later once you try them though. This next one I introduce to you are called Peanut Butter Pretzel Bites.

They look pretty easy to make, right?

Ingredients:

1 cup of creamy peanut butter

2 tbsp softened butter

1/2 cup powdered sugar (maybe more)

3/4 cup brown sugar (maybe more)

Pretzels

1 bag semi-sweet chocolate chips

Again, go here for the directions.

So there is my rant for the day. Why I'm craving sweets so bad lately is pretty annoying. I'm trying to lose weight here. This craving is not helping. I just want to devour every sweet thing in sight. It's like I'm pregnant or something [that wouldn't make sense one bit ;)].

I haven't tried these but I sure want to. Like I said, Chelsea, I'm counting on you. I'm sure I'll get around to it sometime. I'm just in one of those moods where I want it made for me.

Please enjoy. And, please, let me know how they turn out if you end up making any of the three.

p.s. sorry about all the different fonts, colors, sizes. I can't figure out how to change it to make it all the same.