This, friends, is why I want to go on a mission. To become a witness to the truthfulness the Gospel has to offer us. To stand and serve the Lord; share the message as He would if He was here.
Since I have chosen to serve a mission Satan is working me. I keep thinking negative thoughts. Even Aubrie called me Negative Nancy (she was right). I kept taking everything and turning it into negativity. Looking at everything I have learned in my classes this semester that are quite sad and thinking since I fell into the statistic of parents divorce, I'll be the worst mom, my kids wont have a father because I'll settle for less. I keep thinking I'm going to be the worst missionary because I don't know anything. Being home makes me think, this is how it could be the rest of my life. I have no Hope.
I have always had strong Faith. So I thought. Till Sister Myers (Aubrie) told me, without Faith there is no Hope. Without Hope, there is no Faith. Ouch. My outlook on Hope is so much bigger now.
I cannot wait to go share this Gospel with those who I meet. I have HOPE for what the Lord has put in store for me. I asked myself earlier, "what was I thinking in pre-life? Thinking I would be able to go through everything." Again, Aubrie said, because you knew the end. Pretty much I better be just as good as Aubrie was on her mission.
I have Hope and Faith in all things. It's a challenge but I need to pray and come unto Christ. If I do that, the Holy Ghost will give me all that He has promised me. Without the Holy Ghost, I can't have Hope or Faith.
So therefore, I'm going to take what I learn in my classes and make sure I don't settle for less (find a guy that will honor his priesthood, wont look and treat me like a worldly possession, and will take me through the Temple), show my children the unconditional love that every child deserves to feel, and will be the best missionary I can become through the experience and trails I have overcome.
You learn everyday. This is what I learned today. It may not make sense, but there you have it.
|He loves me and He loves you, too.|
Come Unto Christ
[This is the talk I got the quote from. Read it. Promise, it'll help no matter what situation you're in.]